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So another week has come and gone. I only get to work one day this week. That sucks big time. Yeah, I get some free time, but that also means no paycheck. I really hope that the temp agency gets off their butts and gets me something else quick. I have applied for a job at the place I was temping at for the last few months. I hope I get it: I really need steady employment. Being able to afford to live would be nice. No more squatting in friend's basements. Getting my car fixed so I don't have to rely on the frickin bus system. Ah, if life were only a fairy tale. At least I am not out on the street, and I can eat once in a while. And I haves me internet access. I went a long time without it. I can live without it, but it is really, really hard.

I have been thinking recently, and have come to the conclusion that I have become cynical in my old age. Not that I don't trust people, but I don't trust their motives. This makes it difficult when trying to find that special someone. Dating I think has made me even more cynical. The more guys i have contact with, the more I am convinced there are no good guys out there.....who would be interested in me. It's like all guys who are looking at this stage in life are just looking to "bag a catch". I feel like they move swiftly to but their brand on my ass before they even find out if I am what they want. Much less allowing me to find out if they are what I really want. Like the goal is to find someone, anyone, in the less than 8 seconds. If that were the case I wouldn't still be single. In my opinion the goal is to find someone and be HAPPY. It is a complicated process that takes a bit more than a chat over coffee once or twice. Though it would be nice if that was all it took. If you knew exactly right away who was right for you, and you could cut out all the pussyfooting around and just get on with it. But as it stands now that is the stupidest way to do it.